walaupun aku bkn tunang dan dia bkn my inche apex

kecewa kecewa kecewa kecewa KECEWA!!!!!


aku jarang tgk bola, 6 tahun skali br tgk bola kot. so kau paham tak kekecewaan aku? tapi apek mmg membanggakan. no wonder mar slalu stalk blog tunang dia. =p.

tawa dalam tangisan

ye tema kita minggu ini adalah tawa dalam tangisan ye adik2. jgn salah faham. ini bukan bermaksud gila ye. cume terkadang mental sketttt.

"im miserable yet happy. im on cloud nine yet sad. i miss u but i understand. i understand but i want u still. i want you but i'll compromise. i'll compromise but is it enough?"

frankly, i cant express what im feeling right now in 1000 pages, let alone 6 sentences. but my feelings have been so haywire lately that i dont even know where to start. and i find myself constantly thinking about things. about now. about tomorrow. about YOU. the thinking does not end. ever. man i even think while sleeping! *that explains the super sleepy teacher* but despite all those thinking, pondering, i still cant find a solution. so i'll do as you say :

"ini dugaan semasa. dugaan esok, dugaan lusa, kita tak tahu. apa yang akan jadi
kita tak boleh jangka. so buat masa sekarang, kita hargai je apa yang kita ada, apa
yang kita rasa."




*trust me syg, i feel like crying and smiling at the same time all the time these days. all because of you..*

"kuatkan semangat k.."

kuatkan semangat. kalau awak nak sesuatu, awak kena kuatkan semangat smpai awak dapat apa yg awak nak.

masalahnya saya pun tak tahu apa yang saya nak sekarang.


TIPU. aku tahu apa yang aku nak. aku nak kau kat sebelah aku sekarang, esok, sampai bila-bila.

i could really use a wish right now

semalam terlalu lousy. semoga hari ini hati aku lebih ceria. abg, pegang tangan aku bawah meja dan buat aku senyum kembali, please.

bila hati di traffic light

talking to you today made me think. made me feel something. a lot of things.

u left me speechless today, but here's what my heart really want to say:

syg, at this point i dont know what to call - my feelings for you. but i know i like you. really like you. it started with something harmless but now i know im in deep shit. and i miss you every moment every day. and im jealous of her, the one you loved. i want to be in her place.i want to be her. but i wont hurt you like she did. i promise.
and you talked about her, whom you actually belonged to. i learn to respect her more. i feel guilty for what i did, im doing to her right now.
when you talked about your feelings for me, about responsibility, i feel afraid. god! tomorrow is so unpredictable. i dont know what to expect. but this is for sure, our story will end with one of us hurting. u, me, or her. i dont want any of us to be hurt.
syg, i made a wrong move and there's no turning back. but that is not to say that i regret knowing u. however this story ends, i will always remember you as my sweetest memory.......

that's what i really want to say to you but i guess some things are better left unsaid, right syg?

loves. muah2.